Current random thoughts

I love that I have friends that despite going for lengths of time of not much communication just due to life stuff, when we connect again, it is always as though we haven’t ever had more than 5 minutes away from each other. That’s an amazing thing

I love how much music changes things.

I hate how being a girl instantly makes certain things more difficult. Like being friends with guys. It should be able to happen without having to worry about how you are seen, without having to care about how things look. Just getting to be their friend and them yours, without all the BS that seems to come along with it from other people. Boy and Girl don’t matter, being a good friend is what is important, don’t let your issues and insecurities affect my relationships.

I love that place between asleep and awake when I can still hear what is going on around me, but my thoughts are nonsensical and I feel floaty. The best place for that is in a hammock on a warm, breezy, spring day. Or, if that isn’t an option…in my car during my lunch break as I got to experience yesterday!

I love anticipation of good things. It just makes them that much better. Especially when it is something you are looking forward to, the entire experience is then heightened. Love it!

I wish I could be closer to family. Always. Not just in physical proximity either. I feel like I am missing out on so much of the lives of those I most care about due to not only distance but general busyness.

I am constantly learning new things about myself, some of which I am not sure I want to know. Such as how easy it is to get caught up in old thoughts and behaviors despite spending years working on said thoughts and behaviors. How about learning more about how awesome I am? ;)

I love Cadbury Cream Eggs. Nothing else to say there, just deliciousness pooped out by a bunny.

I like my Bath and Body works Cinnamon lip gloss the best cause it adds a sweet cinnamon taste to my coffee drinks.

I get a lot of delight in my first sip of my Starbucks Caramel Macchiato every morning.

I look forward to the weather getting nice so I can go and walk my favorite loop at Henry Cowell.

I thrive on routine (not new information I know, but this just gets reinforced constantly)

While I get compulsive about what I eat, what I read, what I do, what I listen to, what I like/don’t like, and how I do/eat/listen/read those things until I can’t take them anymore, I am happy to say that when I look back on my life that has never occurred with people, those are my constants. And those who have been my constants for so many years (you know who you are), you are right up there with things I consider being the most important things in my life.

I love that I get to work somewhere that I look forward to going to; I know quite well that it is a luxury that not many get to experience.

I love laughing, and I am lucky that I get to laugh a lot, and that there are many people that bring me that wonderful joy.

I am wondering what my next tattoo should be…tee hee

Calvin and Hobbes? Always funny. Always.

I have higher expectations for food than I do for people.

I love physical touch (don’t be dirty people), cuddling, snuggling, hand holding, play fighting, head on the shoulder, hugging, it is all about just being close and having some kind of physical proximity. And since it doesn’t have to be dirty…I feel this way about family, friends, etc and it drives me crazy that I have to be careful about who it is I engage with in this expression of affection because of societal pressures.

Love bantering, sarcasm is my constant companion, it’s all about having the last word, if you can’t make them love you, make them laugh

I love buying things for people. I buy way more for other people than I do for me. It brings me much joy to give gifts.

I hate being bored, really really hate it.

Whenever I try to connect to my emotions in order to be healthy and well rounded, it backfires on me…often. I just may have to rethink this whole being “healthy and in touch” with my emotions.

I think everyone should have people in their lives that just thinking about them for even a second brings a genuine smile to their face. I am lucky enough to have several.